This week has been so much better! I haven't bled all week and I'm really having the urge to start working out again. I keep looking at my body and getting really frustrated, not so much because I'm getting fat, but because I'm losing all my muscle I worked so hard to gain. My atrophying muscles put things into perspective for me, not just with working out, but with everything: my testimony, relationships, languages...everything really. If I'm not continuously working to better my body, my testimony, my marriage, my Japanese; it is so easy to lose everything. No matter how sure I am about the Gospel today, if I stop praying, reading my scriptures or going to Church, I can lose my testimony. Same thing goes with my marriage, something I cherish so much and would never want to lose, if I don't show and tell my husband how much I love him, that love we have could die. I think you get the point. It's just been something on my mind and something I want to make sure I'm improving on. Anyways, tomorrow is an exciting day. I can't wait to find out if I'm having a boy or girl. I'll be blogging about it tomorrow, but for today here are my 19 week (almost 20 weeks) photos.


